Suicide

Ayea524
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Posted by Ayea524

on Apr 25, 2008

Malakye...that is my 4month old sons name. I am all alone I need help. I can barely keep my head above water. I have been on the computer and in the library desperatly tring to find an answer to my prayers. I need money. I can't afford daycare so I can't work as much as I would like to. My own family won't help me. I don't know what to do. Sometimes I think about putting my baby up for adoption and just killing myself just to make things go away... I know that sounds horrible but I love my son too much to just leave him to deal with or anything alone. But I just don't know how I am going to get through the next day. Please if there is anyone out there who sees this message please respond with something possitive. I need it!!!

Ayea524@yahoo.com

Categories: Help, Suicide, Suicidal, Malakye, Not enough, Anthing
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8. clhelp posted on Apr 25, 2008
 in response to Call Me Green...   

Great ....I'll check it out(photographs)

 THE "Best is yet to come" and it has already begun!!!

Thanks! Catch ya later

clhelp

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7. Call Me Green posted on Apr 25, 2008
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No objections here.  But keep the faith. That's about all I'm working with right noe myself.

But I'm still loving life.

 

One thing that helps my get through the day is my photography.  I like taking pictures of the simple things in life that we take for granted, but should still appreciate.  It makes me realize the world is much bigger than me and what I know.  So I can't think all is lost, because there is still so much to be found.

 

Here are my photographs: http://community.webshots.com/user/grantphotography 

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6. clhelp posted on Apr 25, 2008
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I agree Green....You have a ministry of encouragement....thank you for your obedience.When I come into the money I'll look you up and several others here and then we all can get something done....at least make a dent in it....agree?

clhelp
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5. clhelp posted on Apr 25, 2008

There's no since in copping out on your boy...you're greater than that!!!! He doesn't deserve this from you. You are special and destiny is about to happen... hang in there ...it gets bad I know, but it's going to be OKAY....I promise the breakthrough is just about here for you.....watch and see! Give your SON a KISS and hug for me he deserves the real you....You are  destined for GREATNESS.... this is only temporary....it doesn't last forever....just hang in there with the rest of us we are all going somewhere....keep in touch!

Call Me Green
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4. Call Me Green posted on Apr 25, 2008
 in response to Call Me Green...   

whoever made this website needs to be helping everyone asking for here, because they obviously have the time..and possibly the money...

Call Me Green
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3. Call Me Green posted on Apr 25, 2008
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I'm not sure who made this website.  The idea is good..people helping people, but if all of us are broke what can we do for eachother, besides post blogs.

 I myself have looked for money, FREE money, but to know where to get it you always have to buy something, and i'm thinking: "If I am looking for money, how can I spend money that I am in need of?"

 It crazy, but honestly giving up all hope isn't the best route. Personally I can't give you all them money I have, or we will both be sitting here broke.

 But I will provide morale support if I can.  But what you might want to also do is change your outlook on life and have a more postive presense about yourself. You will seem more approachable and people might be more willing to help.

 

It may always open the door for men to come into your life, and that is something that you don't want to block out.

 A lot of women shut men out of their life once they are done wrong. But open yourself to be inviting, in order to allow people to want to help you, rather than always having to ask for help.

 

A lot of it is a mindset.  Your personal outlook on life will determine your outcome in life.  Keep a clear and positive mind and great things can happen, especially if you think limitless, then an unlimited amount of things can come to you.  Keep a hopeless and closed mind, that thinks life it limited, then you will limit your potential.

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2. Call Me Green posted on Apr 25, 2008
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So suicude never really solves a problem.  And it doesn't make things go away.  It is basically a way of saying I give up.

But giving up shows weakness.  But just in your ability to humble yourself and ask for help shows great strength.  All you need to do is unlock that potential.  I don't know you from anyone else up here, but something made me feel I should at least say hi.

I'm going to be honest with you. I've learned everyone on this website is in need of help.  Everyone is asking for help but no one is really giving it.  A lot of us are talking about a financial need, when often times, there is something bigger keeping us from reaching a financial goal.

I understand what you are going through because my mother went through it.  First things first is creating a schedule that optimizes your time.  You might think you don't have time to do anything, but in a 24 hour day we have a lot of time, but in opposition we waste a lot of time.

You work, but not as much as you would like because of childcare issues.  That may call for you to reach out for assistance from your state or federal government.  If that is not an option you want to take, then you need to find outreach services or maybe even a church were you can get the support you need and the morale boost to let you know it will all work out.  Because honestly, being the 1 of many children from a mom that started at 16, to what we are now, it is possible to grow being what you think just with hard work.

 

You need to not limit your potential by thinking everything is impossible, and step out on a whim and try something that might require a lot of work from you now, but will pay off in the end.  Hope this helps.

 

*Green

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1. clhelp posted on Apr 25, 2008
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Thanks....I am not sure how to navigate on this site...or who is addressing who....but thanks if you were talking to me. I not going to say this about this site....but most of the free stuff out on the internet is FREE to public because most of the BILLIONAiRES need to get rid of some money to charities and use this way of doing it. I can't say that it doesn't help some but from the looks and sounds of it here it's not doing to much. I appreciate your insights and encouragement but I am about tired of running into DEAD-end streets everywhere.........there really is NO HELP for people that doesn't have a DOLLAR BILL. I went to a place called AREA RELIEF MINISTRIES and they wouldn't help because I can't work....NOT EVEN ONE TIME.....went to FIFA MINISTRIES and they gave a bag of groceries (thank God) and said we can get one more bag but after that we can't get anymore because they can't afford to do more...the list can go on and on and on. Food stamps take4-6 weeks or longer depending whether or not you can come up with the whole book about your life and your ex's and ex's life 

It's a bunch of BULL S _ _ t!!!!!

People really don't care.....especially these putting up these FREE SITES.

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